so we had fun today~

i had fun today with the camera.
meet my friends.

today we learn the hardship (chewah) to use the manual focus in Av. thus, u can see above on how the pictures are blur or wrongly focused. after so long being pampered with auto focus, al least now i know how to use the manual one, right? haha! no wonder there is no auto car used for JPJ test! (duh! lame~) but yeah we had fun. thats the most interesting part of all. oh the sweet girl here is Jess. i think she is such a lovely person, photogenic too (even though she said she looked horrible in her pictures). cant wait for the next class!

p/s: oh please i am still hoping to get any job!

just go.

you came one day
popped out of nowhere
asking of one life
once you never care
then u ask me
have you now change?
oh yes I've changed.
to be someone you never think i will.
i am sorry i am not
a girl you used to date.
so what -you are the one
who never think of my heart
and now why should i
care of what you want?
i know i am bad
or worse i have been
but are you the one
who can judge me?
deep down inside i hope you know
you hurt me more than you think so
when you cheat on me
think i know nothing
but now you come
just because i am not
one i used to be?
oh please...note this.
maybe yes i changed a bit
but i am still the same
the old izzy.
just me but yeah i mature a bit
so please don't think
that i will let you hurt me
again n again.

go away!

life update

update...
ok i am sorry my dear blog because i haven't update you for such a long time.
no i am not that busy just i don't feel like writing. even if i did i put them as a draft only.

new semester! ok, new subjects, new timetable, new books! new books? apparently i cant afford to buy any at the moment so i just borrow from the library n keep on renewing it until one fine day, i feel that i have the 'Cameron-book-money'. apart from the sad 'no-money' part, i feel happy about my new sem. if you wonder why, the answer is, I MANAGED TO SQUEEZE ALL CLASSES IN 2 DAYS ONLY! haha! n that makes me free on friday, saturday, sunday, monday and tuesday! haha!

but here comes another problem. what am i going to do on those 5 free days??? work? yes, of course! but when you go around and ask for vacancy together with lots of resume but still no answer, you cant help but to feel down a bit. gosh, why is it soo hard to get any part time job?

now about health. winter certainly makes me crazy especially during the vacation. travelling during winter will require you to bring a LOT of medicine. i mean it. the sudden change of hot and cold weather gives me headaches, cold, sneezes, flu and fever... whats with the h1n1 here, it is not helping. yes, we are all kind of paranoid here. as for now, i am glad because i got none of the sickness. im happy to announce that i am as healthy as a horse! hehe.

what more? the state of my room? oh, it is a mess. i dont feel good about it but i did nothing. ok, not that bad actually but with me being a bit meticulous i guess it gives me a reason to feel bad about the room. bah!

oh yes!! the merdeka performance. truly, i am super not excited bout that. maybe because we dont have enough time to prepare or it is quite hard to get the cooperation from everybody to practice. what makes it even worse is i cant do anything about it. well, i guess i can just try my best.

i will update more later.

happy birthday DAYANA!!!

dear you.

today is your birthday,
and i am glad since i have you.
i've got so much to say,
but let me start with i love you.

we don't spend much time together lately,
but you are still one of most precious to me.
we understand on how we both busy,
still, we know we have each other indeed.

you gave me laughs when i need them,
a pair of ears when i need to burst,
when i am mad, or when i sad,
you never fail to give smiles back.

oh please dyane, don't go so far,
need you always, i want you here.
bestfriend we now, the best you are,
and in my heart i keep u forever.

i am sorry if i make things bad,
for that's the last thing i ever intended,
mark my word i am a loser,
sometimes i don't mean it but still it hurts.

i know you are sad, your love is not here,
u wish he is, celebrating this together.
fret not, i know he remembers you, my dear
distance certainly makes heart grows fonder!

do know that i love you dear.

blissful

i see my shield
oh yes from there
i see stares from everywhere
not the first time,
but will it ever last?
maybe time will let us see
the lights that shield
even when you don't care
but you just be there
can you please
being so nice to me?
i feel so happy
am i going to feel like this again and
again?

blissful.

that is more than enough.

i remember when i wonder alone how could it be dreaming about u and you dreaming of none. i know i am nothing.
to you,
i am just that somebody.

the day i told you, i remember.
the date the place the seconds of it.
the hurt the pain and ache.
i don't really see this coming.

you know, i really really do never want to see nothing but you. happy there.
more than enough, enough said.

what an irony

and then he said
ouch, and he bled.
But wait he said,
even if you said
doesnt mean you will
doesnt mean you can
its an irony
when you want to
hop on the wheels
racing again time's sand..

-nas09-

when i'm close to you

you come to me,
all smiling and welcoming,
so sweet the heart melting,
happy i am without knowing
that i will hurt in another minute.

i ran away indeed,
even i know i am in need,
of you being with me,
just be by my side,
stay here close to my heart.

i can see thousand stars above,
the moon shining with love,
the sun smiling so wide,
the skies so blue so nice,
when i'm close to you.

just because i want to,
doesn't mean i will.
doesn't mean i can.

because you are just a dream to me.

i believe.

the temporary hurt of letting go is way better than the continuous hurt of holding on.

The Silver Medal.

i might need to take back my old post. for im in love with NCG!!

the excitement begins in the bus, when i finally met Jody n sat together with both of us holding to our own precious toys. the trip was nice despite the 13-hour-drive from brisbane to sydney. what a long journey but heck it is worth it. we chatted, we cheered, we laughed and we did had fun. the main purpose here: BONDING , is nicely achieved.

let us talk about the accommodation. SUPERB!!! i love you Meriton! haha! it is a posh place with a nice view from our very place. sadly, we don't get the chance to spend a lot of our times in this place since we had games to watch n play.

the host? well, im ok with them eventhough i find it a bit messy. i mean the schedule, timetable all sort of things. and whats with all the swimming events???? haha. but yeah i know you guys want to win so go on.. the food for the bbq was kinda good. sorry folks, i dont get to stay that long to see the performance but i heard it was good. congrats din!

the games? wow! they are all superb! everybody played their roles n perform well. the sportmanship within every single player was so good i think i shall give a 'good-job-pat' to all. but the food provided is slightly disapointing. i wish for a better one haha.

here comes what i am excited most: MY GAME!
i got silver yay!!!
i never imagine i'll go this far but heck i made it!
from 'never-play-futsal-at-all' to 'yay-i-manage-to-save-the-ball'!!
ok, i concede 3 goals through out the games but whatever~~ hahaha!!!
congrats to all my teammates! i love you big time!!

malaysian night was awesome too. with all dressing up, i feel so out of place with me just wearing simple top n do no make up or any hairdo. but i think plain suits me.

for all the pics you may just click here

i will update more on these....later.

it is coming.

well, the day is seriously coming and i have nothing that i can say except for i lost my excitement.

i don't know why, you tell me. is it because i don't feel good about my own strength? or i think i can't do it? or i think i am going to disappoint others?

or maybe i just tired of getting hurt. of nonstop bruises, aching body, etc.

or i just don't like when i feel like i am being forced to do everything... am i? or it is just my feeling? coz obviously there is nobody who force me...

or is it because i spent too much on this trip that i am almost broke right now i don't know whether i can survive or not.

or is it because i need to go so far and to pay to practice when i can hardly buy anything for myself. forget shin guard, forget any possible guard. i guess i just need to survive on none of them.

or the reason might be i just lost my excitement.

you know, whenever i want to join anything, the only reason is because i want to enjoy it. but i don't see i am enjoying all these anymore. i hope the excitement will come again later. please. i want to enjoy my trip or else i will regret forever. come on izzy you have done a lot of things to come to this stage. that includes all the pain and of course the cost. you can certainly just enjoy all these while you still can.

oh DEAR NCG.

oh dear blog

i am sorry.
i don't know what have i done to you.
i simply deleted all the widgets and precious layout,
i don't know what is wrong with me.
worry not,
i don't really feel bad..
because somehow new look will probably the best for you.

so hi empty layout.
i think simplicity suits you.