you make me do this.

you want it big, i see;
you know i cant give,
run it, oh sorry.
no looking at me,
with the eyes of a puppy,
hey i wont give in.
true im happy,
but not to do this.
stop hurting,
im tired of doing...





you.
assignment.

huh!

so many things to write yet so little time.
ergh!
depression is everywhere.

i promise you..

i will give you a makeover once i finish all of my assignments.
i will buy u a baju raya.
i will let others stares at you in awe.

i promise you i will,
my dear blog.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

oh!!!!!
it is already 16th of September!!!!

i heard loud banging on the door and guess what?!
I GOT THESE!




together with quite-out-of-tune birthday song, they made me feel so happy! i can never imagine a simple wish like this will make me smile so wide! oh believe me, i love their singing! haha!

aren't they sweet?

thank you for all the wishes! n to those who wished, wishing or will wish me, thank you so much! u know, it is the thought that counts!

i love 16sept!!

chocolate obsession

image taken from here

i have no idea since when, but i have this worst craving for white kinder bueno. The image, feelings, taste...oh, it lingers on my mind and mouth (or should i say mouth first since i ate them?). It is not helping when you really want to cut down your sweet food. The problem here is, I am not really a choc fan. I don't favour sweet things at the first place. Not chocolate, not ice cream, except for once in a while.

image taken from here

Sadly, you know, with the sights of this.........I am lost beyond words anymore.
Can I have some of them? Again?

*Slowly looking at two empty choc wrapper*

i love me team.

ok, we have a tournament coming.
ASEAN uni games, here we come!
focus focus!
oh i got new team members.
love them.

p/s: n i love my old team too.

workload vs commitment

assignments!
dance practices!
futsal!

i guess i'm overdoing it sometimes.
but those kept my life busy.
which i guess it is for the best.
at the time being, at the very least.

however, when sometimes i feel i reached my limit, i tend to let the 'grumpy' me took over the 'nice' me. which is not a good sight, i know i sounds like an old lady from Mars. (or is it from Venus?)

i wish to just dump everything and sleep.
just it wont be possible, right?
not now.

riverfire festival

I don't have nice pictures to share for this festival. this is what happened when you want to take pictures of fireworks, but you don't bring along tripod. blergh!

But it was fun, when you need to book the place early, breaking fast with friends, and have fun. With no worries of assignments (as if it is possible...)

I wish I have a boyfriend to share the beautiful sight of fireworks tonight, where we could go picnic and eat together while watching them. A wish, I would say.

Back to work.

i guess i lost my touch

went to futsal training n i forgot how to catch the ball!!!!!
Ok, here's the thing.
I hate to play with no practice.
Come to think of it, I think the last time i practice for futsal was..
FOR GOD SAKE! NCG???

haish. I should start thinking of ways to brush up my skills again.
oh, I want to improve! badly!

circus oz! wow!

This is a post with no other words (supposedly) except for

A.W.E.S.O.M.E





p/s: i wish i can do those acrobatic moves!

09/09/09

i guess there's nothing much.
when im hoping for something special to happen today. haha.

it is weird when every single year,
on special date like this, i will hope for something special to happen.
it is already like a habit.
i think the habit started when i was in SSP?
Really? i *think* so, since i know i am looking forward towards something on
020202,
030303,
040404,
050505,
060606,
070707,
080808,
090909..

but nothing is THAT interesting. haish.
so, I am supposed to not give up, right?
Will probably waiting for
101010
111111
or

121212

those dates sounds good for marriage (would do good too for the guys to remember your wedding date anniversary!) But I am told there are so many of my friends booked those dates already, when I have nobody yet to get married with? Loser. hahah!

first day

of working.
tired.
really.

homesick.

homesick day, i shall call today.

i started my day with a dream, of suddenly got money to go back to Malaysia, just to have a day with family. nothing please me more now than to get the chance to enjoy Ramadhan and Syawal together with my beloved ones. yes, i am a family person and i know i pampered myself to the extend i cant really stand being too far for too long. i guess by study overseas gives me a lot of challenge, not to add how i challenge myself not to go back at all before end of next year.

just, how can i not cry when i miss my family so much?

my mama used to say i am her most troublesome daughter. but can you imagine what will you feel when your youngest sister told you, 'mama cakap mama rindu along sangat2'? i can never held the tears for so long when it comes to family. yes, i am independent, but i am still izzy, abahmama's beloved.

sadly, i am not there in Malaysia this year. nak puasa ngn angah, mama, abah, akak, aina, adik... nak buka puasa sama2~ nak gi bazaar sama2... nak shopping raya sama2... nak cuba baju raya sama2~

nak raya sama2........














i am really homesick.

you belong with me

*laughing my ass off*



but i love the real one better. oh you may watch it here.

being single is simple, but not really fun after all. ahaha!

parcel parcel!!

i love parcels!!!!!!!!

i love getting presents (who doesnt?) and i love getting letters, cards and parcels even more! and man i got 2 parcels today! both from my favourite people in the world.

went to the office to get those big bulk of things. and man it wasnt easy! can you imagine getting a 13kg parcel, and the hardship it takes for you to bring it upstairs? luckily the lift is functioning or else i might be able to show the world my new slim body. what a dream. haha.

look at what i got!2 pairs of baju raya! shoes! handbag! food! and food again!!! i love you mum!!

and to that another person, thank you for your kad raya! and birthday present! believe me i love it so much! i love the turtle, but i love what you wrote in the card too. well, 'puashati' might be the best word to describe the feeling of reading the card. haha! i am kind of vain sometimes, i know.

i love you guys! i feel loved!

photomedia and chips!

i finally submit my photomedia assignment. it is just a pic, but it gave me a lot of pressure. 2 pics are almost overwhelmed me in despair (this sounds ridiculous).

as a token of appreciation of my own hard work (well with the help of others too) i bought myself a pack of sinful chips! you know, it is sinful when you battling to lose your weight. together with orange juice. yummy.image taken from here

and fattening.

but i cannot resist the temptation, no?

Roses

i saw a girl holding a bouquet of red roses few days ago and wondering what was she up to. yes, she was wearing school uniform and all. she was smiling but the eyes told me that she has some other things in her mind. an old lady suddenly sit beside her at the bench not far from where i am. a startling face she made, when she suddenly took one of her roses and give it to the old lady. the lady smile, n said thank you.

and i feel touched.

but then the girl cried. do not ask me why, i have no idea why.
life is weird sometimes. tell me about it.

it is already September.