A little rest for a little while

No more lesson planning
No more headache and screams
No more materials preparation
No more strict observations

A little rest
For a little while

But the school and people i know,
will not be forgotten

Then end of practicum
One step to the real world.
At this very moment,
I love my profession.

I have a friend. Or 'friend'?
Who goes behind my back,
And tries to take everything away?
Oh please
Do you know how bad it is?
All these things that you did?
Knowing clearly how i feel?
Oh please
Don't say I'm sorry
Since i know it is not worth it
And i thought that i can believe
Where truth is
Nobody
Ever earn the trust that i keep.

Out of all days, why today?
Why now?

I understand now why my friends keep ob asking me to let go.
Because i thought i did.
When i did not.
Truth is, my life is all about hanging on
I hate it when i dont understand
Or taken advantage of
Or ignored
Or forgotten.

Or just simply left when i need the most.

And i think i can believe in you
No, i thought.

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Officially a graduate now!

Congrats baby! I'm so proud of you.

I can still remember
at that time of the year,
asked you to join that one
But you declined
Refuse to follow

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Explosion of the empire?
Really made my day.
Worrying is not the problem
Giving not a damn thing
Start to worry much
The danger is there,
Yet excitement,
The rush of the blood,
Being mad is always
The winggle on the stage.

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I guess you can say that I miss you
But I dont think it's you I miss
I think who I miss the most is
The person I thought you were
Not the person you turned out to be.

I guess you can say that i miss you
But I dont think that it is you i miss
Because when I looked at the mirror,
There is no you to begin with
Only me,
And my invented memories.

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Im so slow.
I realize now that I dont want love
I just need to be happy
And find someone who can make me feel that
Just happy
Not love
No love

Dont love...

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And is it worth it? Being responsible?
Cause if you take your vitamins,
And pay your taxes,
And never cut the line,
The universe still gives you people you love,
And then let them slip through your fingers
Like water
And then what have you got?
Vitamins..

And nothing.

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Post birthday celebration

Went to national museum for celebration with nurul. Yes, i did. Haha. Good thing is, got to play with the snake! Yeahhhhh!!! Hahahha!

Yes, that was just how i celebrate my birthday. Hahaha!

Fish spaaaaa

Eat, fish, eat!
Eat them all!!

N nurul's face? Priceless.

HB

Age is just a number. But who am I kidding?? I am so a grown up now I cant believe it at all!

Thank you mama for giving birth to this brat 24 years ago.

Thank you for all the wishes people!

Thank you for giving me smiles yesterday. ...

And thank you roommate for the cake and unplanned intimate date.

Xx

P/s: i might not be pretty but I have wonderful people around me, who loves me for who I am. And I am glad for that.

Everything is perfect there but one thing..

The lost and tragedy.

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I feel angry, mad and moody
But i stay.
Stayed.
No. Stay.

I am terrified.

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moment

I will do just about anything to be here at this hour.

I miss.

What?

Looking at all the pictures and i am impressed that i can hold my feelings to be feelingless. What an achievement.

I think this new development is not healthy for my future. I need to do something

Thanks roomate for being there when i needed you just now.

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Still

Yes, i feel THAT difficult to let you out off my mind. Why?
...
Much
A lot.

It hurts.

We are going to meet again,Malaysia. So long Brunei.

The land I like

Hello Brunei!
Let us entertain ourselves with all the smiles and happiness.
And stay on.
The smiles I mean.

Confession of broken hearted

Hello Brunei.

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Take your time in knowing yourself. Because you deserve that time.
Take your time in believing yourself.
Because you deserve that chance.
But tell yourself to be given time
Tell yourself to be slow and learn
Tell yourself to start to understand
That life really revolves around
Us only.

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This pain, the physical pain, will last me more than the inner ones. Despite the fact that the physical will lead me to seek the inner pain. The medicine. Literally soothing cure. Painkiller is you.

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