Believe me, i really want to. I do.

O Allah,
Please give me a way.

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After so long, it feels awkward.
It really does.

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Tapak kuda

I want this please.

Right right.

"You are perfect, but you are not perfect for me."

"You deserve better."

Sounds familiar? Welcome to the club.

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Long ride

It is like a bus ride in a long highway .You know you are on the right track, you know where you are heading. But along the way, you might found the stop signage, or anything. Just as distraction for you, but actually as help for the driver. You go forward, for the exit. From your seat , from your window.

Life goes on, you know.

You know you can stop as you see the sign, but instead you just go on. Why? Because you believe that you are doing the right thing. That matters most.

Belated but better late than never

Oh I got a birthday card today! (omg i know it was sooo belated)

Thanks! And thanks for the 1pound!

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If you really have the courage.

Courage? I believe that it is the willingness to be afraid and act upon it anyway. I am afraid, always. I am however not able to just leave it at that. The fact that I act upon what I want makes me look ruthless, and to some, no longer special. Regardless everything, I am still who I think I am. Yes, I made lots of mistakes, but not for others to judge me.

Occasionally, I will stop at one point of life and ask myself, 'Am I going to make this right?' but again, I am now believe in making mistakes and make myself better from all the mistakes.

No, knowing you is not a mistake, it is a way for me to learn. And be better.
Throw in love, time and forgiveness and the outcome should be equally optimistic.
Should be.

Because we are all looking at the bright side.

I love to eat

And i dont care.

Even when i can no longer fit into my old jeans. Thanks for reminding me, people.

Went crazy

I went beyond my imagination and allowed an spot of baldness in the size of 20cent on my head.
Yes, i know.
But at least now i know 'bekam' doesnt hurt.
And the 5 spots on the forehead?? Haha priceless. Need to cover those funny spots tomorrow for cricket.

Cricket??!!! I know right??
Oh batting and bowling.. Kind of fun.

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Oh

Indeed.

How..

Those songs. What? Found out the truth. Greed versus feelings. And I blame those thorns. Counting the patches, storing the tears. No, forever is not what I need.

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Pangkor

2am in the morning and it is my turn to patrol.

The feeling of being here, Pangkor at night? Priceless.
With this sound?
Who can resist to be sleepy?
Good food,
Good people to hang with,
And good laughters.
Creating all the sweet remembrance.

Love this place.

P/s: why must 2 hours? I am sleepy....

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In denial but...

Really?
...

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Hello CM! And the Es Teller welcome the hungry me. With Shiha I ate like a king.

And the fish spa?
The night lights?
The good chat..
And some love.
Just beautiful.

Awesome trip.

Stir your life, baby.

What a beautiful day. With the sun, and the breeze. And I stayed at home?! I did. 

I need to get a life.

Find my awesome dress, put on my best heels, go out and have fun.

Will ask Shiha. Jom?

True story

I spent too much of time worrying and mourning over things i shouldnt have to.

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Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they've got. Really.

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Happy birthday.

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Not enough sugar, but with lots of love

Before,
at this very time...

While I waited
You waited too
Just not for me
Only one that you knew
But that is ok.

Lit the candle, in few minutes.

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I miss a lot of things.
And people.

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Find me when you are ready
Not because you are lonely.

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Admit it...

Somewhere, someday,
somehow...

You like someone you cant have
You desire something you cant get
You hate someone you cant forgive
You love someone who don't love you back
You want to stay when you are chased away
You forget just how to forgive and let it go today.
You hold on too tight, you don't realize you are losing it anyway.

Admit it.

It is 3 am and I cant stop thinking.
Thanks caffeine, my brain is working without a blink.
Too tired but now I cant sleep.
Shall start to think my plan to keep me here.
With the right sanity.

5 cups of coffee..
too caffeinated to realise
that i am tired.





of staring at nothing.

Sweetdream

Even just for a dream.
It gave me some kind of peace.
A while, but worth it.

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Giving up? No, growing up.

Lit up a candle and stare at it.
A certain kind of at ease.
Simple, yet full with meaning.

Burning candles.
Looking at it again, i feel proud of my own heart.
Even it's been played,
Stabbed,
Cheated,
Broken and BURNED,
Somehow, it still works. Amazing thing.

Now now, got to realize that the front cover has nothing to compare with the real subject. Like a textbook. Or the real meaning of this burning candle.

What?

Why burning candle? Why??
Some things are just better left unanswered.

Woken up

Because September has ended

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