Nothing but this

Other than kindness and smiles, 
I have but to offer you nothing else.

I can give you word,
of advice, of sharing, of giving you tips,
for you to think and use it wisely.

I can give you my shoulder,
to share some burden, we can make it lighter,
sure we can try.

I can give you my hands,
to help you out,with all i got,
include soothing pats and all the hugs.

I am no pretty,
not a princess with beauty and money.
Not a prize to display and forever keep.

I have nothing to offer but kindness and smiles.
So here I am,
please be my friend.

the first.

what will a life be without a secret?

So much of a little

every second is counted.
feel as if you are running out of time.
too many things to do,
too much of pressure,
too little of time.

to pursue or to resist?
to share or to keep?

the ultimate turning point?

Just go.

you came one day
popped out of nowhere
asking of one life
once you never care
then u ask me
have you now change?
oh yes I've changed.
to be someone you never think i will.
i am sorry i am not
a girl you used to date.
so what -you are the one
who never think of my heart
and now why should i
care of what you want?
i know i am bad
or worse i have been
but are you the one
who can judge me?
deep down inside i hope you know
you hurt me more than you think so
when you cheat on me
think i know nothing
but now you come
just because i am not
one i used to be?
oh please...note this.
maybe yes i changed a bit
but i am still the same
the old izzy.
just me but yeah i mature a bit
so please don't think
that i will let you hurt me
again n again.

go away!

When I am close to you

you come to me,
all smiling and welcoming,
so sweet the heart melting,
happy i am without knowing
that i will hurt in another minute.

i ran away indeed,
even i know i am in need,
of you being with me,
just be by my side,
stay here close to my heart.

i can see thousand stars above,
the moon shining with love,
the sun smiling so wide,
the skies so blue so nice,
when i'm close to you.

just because i want to,
doesn't mean i will.
doesn't mean i can.

because you are just a dream to me.

Abah.

Hai abah!

Waktu kecil-kecil dulu,
abah suka letak along di pangku.
Kata abah,
jangan nakal, dengar kata,
jadi anak baik, abah sayang.

Masa petang kita duduk di tangga,
banyak cerita banyak gelak tawa.
Kata abah,
orang Jepun asal dari Jawa.
kecil dulu? Along percaya!

Kalau bab makan lagilah penat,

banyak komen, pesanan, tak ingat!
Kata abah,
kecil dulu abah dah pandai masak!
Along makan tahu, masaknya tidak!

Bila besar kini jadi kawan,
abah banyak beri nasihat.
Kata abah,
hidup ini banyakkan bersabar,
tak semua benda kita akan dapat.

Sekarang abah jauh nun di Malaysia,
tapi tak apa, selalu SMS juga,
Kata abah,
jaga diri di tempat orang,
kalau rindu abah, jangan menangis banyak.

Walau abah kejam berkata,
walau abah gurau merata,
abah tetap along sayang,
abah tetap along cinta.
Along rindu nak peluk abah,
cium tangan dan pipi juga.

Ucap along kepada abah,

SELAMAT HARI BAPA!!!!!!!

(Hari Bapa : 21 Jun 2009)

Belonging

you are the voice,
the one in dream.
oh please leave,
i need it -peace.
but you keep haunting.
you know the words,
make me listen,
for whatever reason.
it hurts yes it is.
i know we never belong,
the voice oh yes,
you are the music, sure.
that was easy,
outside the norm,
the thunder, the rhythm.
thumping....

trapped in the own
misery

Mama

mama,
along nakal kan?
mama selalu kata along tak dengar cakap.
along tau along degil.
along nakal buat mama pening.
bila tak puas hati, along cakap tak bertapis.
tak jaga hati mama, tak tau kalau terluka.
along banyak susahkan mama,
mintak ini, buat itu,
masak ini, pergi situ,
mama mesti pening.
anak mama memang degil.

tapi ma,
bila jauh.....along rasa..
jauh......
sangat jauh.....
along rindu mama membebel.
kalau dulu along rasa penat nak dengar,
sekarang along boleh dengar 8jam tanpa henti,
hanya kalau mama depan mata.
along rindu.
nak peluk mama, cium mama,
cakap dengan mama...
pegang tangan mama...

mama, along mintak maaf banyak2.
along tau along banyak buat dosa dengan mama.
tp along tetap syg mama.
sayang along pada mama tak terhingga.

selamat hari ibu mama.



anak mama yang jauh,
along.

The heart that wavered

i think i need to say that i am happy.
just to clarify because i really am.
but i got this hard bad feeling.
that i shouldn't let my guard down.

with the things that go rather easy.
assignments submitted few days ago.
got WIP to be worried of and tests only.
but those are not what i am thinking though.

the heart that wavered so bad it beats-
so hard i thought i might cause it bleed.
do i need to make myself real clear?
that i feel nothing but total fear?

i guess this is rather complicated. random.