Mistake

Here is a thing about mistakes:

Sometimes when you know that it is a mistake, you have to make it anyway. Just to prove that it is a mistake. Or else we can never know that the mistake is a mistake. We will live without knowing that a mistake is a mistake because we mistakenly not doing the mistake.

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Sugarbutterbread

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Tiny nevertheless certain

Small little amend

Big enough? But plain-

Too plain.

Enough, as you ordered

From the menu

Thus far, will that do?

Plain-

Is forever good

In no way impede

From be visible to you

However indeed

In a way complete

The raison d'être

To be too in bliss

Hitherto wanting

More than plainly this.

Exactly. 

Because 'sky is the limit'

Really?

Wooden heart or steel?

My heart is hurting now. I googled for reasons. You know, maybe I ate something that will cause this pain. But, instead, I came across an old song I always remember. A song I cherish a lot.

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Can't you see

I love you

Please don't break my heart in two

That's not hard to do

Cause I don't have a wooden heart

And if you say goodbye

Then I know that I would cry

Maybe I would die

Cause I don't have a wooden heart

There's no strings upon this love of mine

It was always you from the start

Treat me nice

Treat me good

Treat me like you really should

Cause I'm not made of wood

And I don't have a wooden heart

This song is called Wooden Heart (Elvis Presley). You see, I always choose to believe that I can make my own kind of love story. You know, the -not-so-common ones. But I ended up stuck in the cliche patterns. Boring. Maybe I should start to educate myself to good music. The ones that will made me NOT think about this song (that since just now stuck forever in my head with mental image of elvis presley and the dool).

Things are quiet lately. Too quiet to be precise. Nothing much happened. Not so full with drama(s) except few panic attacks when exam and assignments take the toll on us. At the very least, I am glad that the busyness take my minds off whatever I am burdened with.

The hunt for baju melayu at Jalan TAR. 

Met Jeremy (my ex-housmate's son) during his vacation trip here and we talked about things in Malaysia and Australia. We also made lots of discussion about life, cultures and love. Topics got wider by the time I asked about commitment in life. He playfully agreed on life with commitment is hard, it was way more fun without one. Now that I think about it again, I guess it really is. No expectation, no hard feelings, not much  no tears, no headache. After all, I think I have still lots to catch up in life. He told me how he loves adventures and been trying lots since little. Always want to try so many new things in life, so I know I must use every possible chance, be opportunist. Will do. Thanx Jez. I am glad you enjoyed our tour (haha!) and Malaysia. See you when I see you later. Cheers, mate.

Did lots of reading lately. All the exam topics are not good for my health. They made me think too much over issues like 'Dasar-dasar kerajaan' and 'Perintah Am' but somehow lots of thinking of those made me realize that I also need to play my role as a good citizen. We will start with... err.. any suggestion?

the <3of  housemates (pic courtesy of Aliaa Zawani)

the cake during QUT farewell (pic courtesy of Erma Heldayu)

The real rafewell is nearing. No, it is already here. I hate goodbyes. Friends are always my best resort when I started to think unnecessary things.

I guess somehow I am still not over this.This small tiny little thing.

Recovering.

Alhamdulillah.
KISSM, you made my life a living hell for a moment.
But now that you are gone, I believe I am going to miss you.

Love,
One who went out early during exam

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Emotionally disturbed over things I cannot understand- Nothing.

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Nice music ambience after another. Who can resist the excitement?
Thanks sis for the treat!

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A treat.

Thank you God.

Got to know my result, and I am so so glad, i never expected it (looking at my results all these while). So I took a trip for my own kind of celebration. A slow walk enjoying day, followed by a nice dinner with lovely people from Aussieland. Then now treating myself to good liveband alone at bb. With a cup of hot lemonade, what can go wrong?

I thank You, God. For giving me reasons to smile today.

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Change

We dont like it-
We fear it.

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Soul is no gift

Do you have anyone that when you try to contact them, your heart will be very badly heavy and big lump in throat that hurt do much? You ended up not typing anything at all. Sometimes it is important (at least to you) but then you let it go. Then that someone contacted you, which makes you heart almost stop. But then ignored again after that. Why?

When you can hear the whimper of the wind. Of soul that is soulless.

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111111

I wish nothing but the best for you...

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Vertigo

For those whose goal is 'something higher' must expect some day to suffer vertigo.

The voice of the emptiness below everything else.

Afraid much? Run.

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Secret Garden

A place where you can do your worst.
Be yourself.

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Eid-ul Adha

Celebrate it with all the happiness you can get.
For all the love and care I got, I thank you Allah.

Merdu suara takbir..

What fix?

There are no quick fix that heals fast, especially not by trying to talk it out. No, you have no idea what to talk, where to start, how to fit everything into one simple story line. Because there is none. The only solution that you can think of is to lessen the heartache. Forget the revenge, will bring you to nowhere. Give up the hope, will be utterly hopeless and at some point, you will realize that you are just wasting your time. Stop everything you are doing. Stop every picture viewing, history chat/msgs reading, checking every single time for new updates about them. Be generous. Be better than being stupid. No, do not forget, because that is how you learned your lesson. Just stop wasting the tears they dont deserve. Start with letting yourself go. Give yourself some love. Smile more, and just keep on smile. Even when you cannot cheat yourself, you might as well let others around you feel relief. If you can, find new people to hang out with, even though in my case I am more comfortable do lots of things on my own. No, watching movies alone are not pathetic. Eating alone is also ok. Nothing is wrong with walking and strolling down the park alone. Who knows, that way the fix and the heal we try so hard to find can be found? 

Then again, we can still cry where nobody will never know. 

I think so

Traffic jam: Festival of light.

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Rainbow days