Floral dinner

What i need
When i feel in need
is friends.
Indeed.

Thank you, Irrina.
Happy Birthday.

Xo,
Izzy.

A veil hangs between the opposites, a mere slip of thing that is too transparent to warn us or to comfort us.
You hate now, but look through this veil and see the possibility of love;
You are sad, but look through to the other side and see happiness.
Absolute composure shifting to a complete mess- it happens so quickly, all in the blink of an eye.

I took for granted of things before.
I closed my eyes over things I refuse to know.

It is Not my greatest strength at the first place but I will try to be real.

Simple algebra equation.

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I remember the times I cried before, and that made me laugh now. What I never know is when I remember the times of laughters, they will bring me to tears.

Of looking the pictures and old memory lanes.

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Point

At your weakest, you end up showing more strength
At your lowest you suddenly lifted higher than you've ever been
They all border one another,
The opposites and show how quickly we can be altered.
Despair can be altered by one simpke smile, offered by a stranger
Confidence can turn to fear by the arrival of one uneasy presence.
Everything is in the verge,
Always brimming the surface,
With only a slight shake or tremble to send things toppling.

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Perigi dan timba

Kisah perigi mencari timba
Timba dan perigi
Perigi dan timba
Sekian.

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A casket of old memories

I remember the park the swings
Higher and higher my hand is pushing
Swinging, laughing leaving all worries
The green grass
Music
Cobbled street indeed
I remember the confetti
The white dress
The flowers in the hands
Then coming
In the dead brain cells
Hands hurting, shouting, shivering
Slamming
Sprinklers again, slowly rising
Sunsets and sunbeam.

Casket closed.

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The zombie family

Thanks for making this a success.
I love all of you, my juniors.

Special thanks to you, Danny and Nurul.

Nurul..
Hugs!!!!!

To give

Fly away
High..
Star and the limelight.
To give all the wants
And all that ever asked
Why-
Stepping back and forth
Leaning.
Learning.
Loving.
Losing.
Leaving.

And start again

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Best worst

The worst part of it is you but that is also the best part of it.

I am going to search through the memory lane
Till I can say I am through and through
Through and true.

Truly you

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That face

She wore that hair
Like she did in summer night
So alive so high so nice just to wear all night
What all think why she might
But none knows if all is alright
Then she said it is fine
Since she bares it then hide
Just she wore that face
Like she did in a stormy day
So sad so bad so hateful must all miss to say
What she needed why she did this
When she just can keep all away
Just so it happen
She might just be gone
Again.

When she wore that face
When she knows that bad

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Pretty little liars

Who's story is this?
Tell me again?

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Affective filter

And the affective filter is already up. This high.

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Buih sabun

Mari kita main buih sabun
Gelembung bulat
Bulat bulat,
Tiup tiup
Terbang menjauh

Cari hanya ketika bingung
Bulat bulat mari kita tiup
Bulat mudah terbang,
Bulat suka bermain
Bulat oh bulat

Satu bulat. Dua bulat. Tiga bulat

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Boiling water

The hot and feverish one.
Boiling burning.
In a kettle, for a cup of tea.
Ahh.. Better.

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Sunny

I call for sunrise when it is sunset,
and I call for sunset when it is sunrise.
Never enough.
Sunny up, sunny down,
Sunny turn and goes around.

'I want sunny side up, and you don't have to turn it around.'

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Little bird please tell

Oh my little bird
Tell me why my head is hurting
Tell me why the heart is pounding
Tell me why the life is gloomy
For I want to know, little bird
That I can feel now how bad I am feeling.

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Time please give me some more strength.
Some more time or I will stop dead
Staring at the clocks of the old tales
Begin with the high intake of painless pills.

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Word of wisdom

Orang berbudi kita berbahasa
Orang memberi kita merasa
Orang tak sudi jangan dipaksa
Kerna hati badan binasa

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Be cool

Let us just smile to each other and pretend that nothing happened.
We exchange stories like no other things matter. Because this story is still going on and on. The story of dream high.

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Lose it

We don't know wgat we had until we are about to lose it.

Grab it back, and forget about it.

Lose it again.

We never be grateful.

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Tolong ingatkan aku

Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Kau dampingi aku
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Bila marah merasuk minda

Kecewa menyelubungi jiwa

Aku lupa.

As told by Ana Rafali.

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Like a sweet

I am not a sweettooth person.
But when I really want something sweet, I'll find it. If not, oh well..
Not much in need of sweets, chocs or icecream..

Now that is how it is.
How sweet.

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Wow

Congratulation to you, my friend.
Hope that both of you will be happy always.
My blessings are always with you.

He is lucky to have you.
You are lucky to have her too.

Oh happy mode is in the air.
Wedding! Wedding!

A grin for a change.

Long since the last I feel like writing. Like sitting on a couch, stop, ponder, and write. Well, I did that today. And I figured that I have nothing much to write.

Have you ever come to a stage where you just let go of everything? Like when you are happy, you just be happy and let go of any other worries. When you are stressing your hair out about your problems you just let it go without solving them. When you do anything, you don't really think abut the consequences, but just do it because you want to? I have been asking myself, why am I trying so hard these days to please everybody around me when I know they don't bother.

Slowly, but surely, I will see to my own limit.
Questions unanswered for those which are rhetorically asked, intentionally made to make yourself feel better. Even I know that. Just to make sure that I am always in reality. Check.

Reality bites.

But even that doesn't really convey anything. I believe that when reality bites, you bite harder. Life is full with surprises.

Oh, yes. I am currently in whatever-mode, if that is what you want to know, stalkers. *grinning*

*turn the grin to a smile. Full with meanings*

For a change of life circle.

and for a change of wheel of Brisbane....

Thanks for this picture. 

Wallpaper-ed already.

Brisbane-sick.

Loud and clear

Little did I know I am still not as strong. When Syafa pointed that out just now i was like,'ohhhh.....'

A wakening call
A straightforward message
Loud and clear.

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That precious gesture.

Oh, today I saw her again. The old lady who used to gave me a big smile whenever I passed her at Kerinchi Station. Especially 3 years ago. Made my gloomy day a brighter one.

Little bit of this and that

Talked to few old friends recently. They update me about their life nowadays, how work life keep them busy, how their burden doubled when being independent, and their married life being husband (haha yes, you, Bob!) and wife (wink to you too N!). Worst of all, they keep on bugging me with reminders to enjoy my life as a student as I will miss it so much once I am working. Yeah, I know that. N, being a teacher is double your workload, when you can (sometimes) sit on your cube and doing nothing but blows nails, and even ym-ing me! You ungrateful girl! haha.

Egoism

an excessive or exaggerated sense of self-importance.
nonetheless proved to be fatal for some people,
but beneficial to the others.
self-centred? able to give and share?
think of one-self? compassionate towards others?




Egoist vs Altruist.


Love

Somewhere..

Over the distance.

Way apart.

Places

that I used to love

and want to visit some other time

And for that one place I demand,

to someone dear in heart.

I wish you well, I wish you safe

I wish you happy every single day.

Syhhh..

Just keep it,
Because you know it is not worth the pain.
When you are burning your own future over the candles of life, of love.
Just burn them all.
Burnt.
And cried over.

Kite bako je.

Stars from the above

Be my lucky charms.

Be my glittering pendant,
with a necklace I can wear.
Be my dangling bracelet.
Be my perfect ring.
Be my lovely studs.

And I will feel so safe.
For I always have the charms.
With me.

Bloodish!

Yes. I went extreme (for me!) today. Donated my blood? Check! At lasttttt...
After so many failed attempts (low blood pressure, finish the tube, etc) I can now proudly announce i have donated my blood. Once. -_-"

Babysteps ok. I never think I will be able to see this day. I hate blood, and I hate needles, what more syringe! But oh well.. It was not a pretty sight though. Only those who were there knew how scared to death I am! With so many questions, and the BIG needle with SO MANY blood that they took! Haha. But once they put the needle in my vein I smiled and tell everybody waiting, 'oh, it wasn't that bad...'. And the i-am-so-nervous-Grace said, 'like that la now!' haha. Pretty fun.

I planned to do something more fun today. Go out and do something stupid maybe? The plans were no longer applicable once I finish, i felt so dizzy and tired. Haha.

But. Today is the day that I just dont feel good. Even if it is not because of this bloodish event. Because I still feel it is bleeding. Something else i mean.

Live to see the day of today.

Of 24022010.

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Because I deserve it

When things are not as how I wish they will be, I shall start to accept them as how they are now. Even better. Maybe.

Accepting the destiny.
Approve of the life as how it is.
Believe in God as He know best.
Stop worrying what will happen next.

And with a smile,
Calmly walk forward-
Proud to be who I am today.
Pat on my own back,
'You deserve to be strong'.
Believe it.
Confidently.

Because I deserve it.

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Of yesteryear's excitement.

Flowery feelings of that day,
Winking every flowery steps,
To live the flowery love of life.

Of yesteryear. This exact minute.

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I am

I am ok.
Just gathering all
The remaining sanity
The residual courage
The lingering sense
The leftover guts
Just about anything
Stiching them slowly.
To swathe the impair.
To keep me going.
Breathing.
I am ok.
Because-
I have to be.
I promised.

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216

"...But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you know not."

                             Al-Baqarah : 216

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Cutter and shapes

With the sharp edges,
They all linked together.
Embrace the warmth,
Of finding each other.

You think?

Which one is the most important?

Wealth?
Faith?
Love?
Or loyalty?

Salam Maulidurr Rasul.

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Speaking to nonbeing

Again.
For the route of wonderland is officially over.
However, it was worth over the series of whoaaaa's and caffeinated walks.
Blissfully glad, thank you.
Very much.

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Green cindarella.

When the prince tried to find his princess, he used the other glass slipper to find one that match his.

But i need another pair of green fipper that match mine, or mine his.

How I miss.
Even when I get to see one everyday.
No, using one.

Delicate memories.

Down down

So I saw this in last night's dream.
Beautiful-
Yet it has certain memories.

Miniminimynimore

Who is the worst out of us all?
When one runs without a shoe
Another pour a belly juice
While one plan to share a plate
Another skip for jelly beans
Oh miniminimynimore.
I think you have to fool us all
For at the end I see you call
To cheat and let the love on toll.

Miniminitinydrops.

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Wall of brick

Slowly disintegrating.
The rain is pouring,
Wash away the small bricks.
Even when the sun shines,
The mould kept on coming,
As a way of telling-
There is no way of forgetting,
Of how it will stay forever
By the great wall of brick.

Shower of the rain.
Ahh... The simple drops of pain.

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Half full or half empty?

The bottle is half full?
The bottle is half empty?

Does it really matter if the bottle is in need of syrup or juices?

Since the plain water is no full.

But no foul intended if we mix any sort of liquid available.

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0

...
There is no end in a circle
N of 0? no.
Of darkness and pitchblack.
Of loneliness.

Firecrackers.

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Shining star

Shining star.
Shy away oh
So far
From within.
beat the most
To kill the form
Of gloomy storm
Hope is a thing
With nothing
But the drip
of Love.

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to you the stranger

The stranger under the tree, you.
I am sorry, i know you too,
For what we need
Is to be true
But so afraid
To just go through

You being there over the tree
I shall say hey,
My name is Lily
But i just stand here
Waiting for the courage
But with the tears
That i must add

Hello, stranger.
Want to walk me home?

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When-

The hairbrush tangled
With hairs
Of the short ones
To the long ones.
From the day they outgrown.
Tangled with undo knots.
The roots.
The split ends.

I need a haircut.

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