Maybe,
there is another route.
There is another truce.
Just maybe,
I can smile again.
Put the sorrowness into the drain.

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When my friend told me to ignore and move on, I question myself the ability to move forward. I doubt much, but believe for more to gain. Ive done crying. Ive done mourning. Heck, why should I even care at the first place, looking back at all the memories that I know will bring back all the tears. The msgs in the inbox and some random thoughts are not real. I know somehow I feel bad for myself actually for being like how I am today. But I learned. I want to be stronger. For whatever prides left on me, I want to move. Forward.

This hurtful feelings are not without tears but tears never help but to release my tense. Only.

My own sort of tranquility.

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I cried nonstop for over an hour without any specific reason. I am so tired now i feel like throwing up. What a bad day.

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Just a small button with the big turn
Jolly yiehaw and yayy no mourn
Brought the cake
Late you bake
A girl who late
But claim to take
Throphy to make
Yourself to fake
Now he is dead
And none to blame
But the pursuit of fame

No time wont wait
But please
Just stay
In life, I would say
And keep appearing
Breathing
Till death take it away

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Be the change you want to see in the world (Gandhi)

You want to see others the way you like. How about you be one first? See, Gandhi perfectly gave us the guidance, how genius.

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Happyyy

So happy so shining
The day it is
Even when the wheather
so dark so gloomy
Praise the love
That is in the air
Bring up the mood
showed that you care

Happiness is what we dare to bare.
Thank yousssssss

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I miss you.
I never want to miss you like this.
It hurts.

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It doesnt matter if you are no longer in someone's heart.
After all, it is the faith that you have in yourself is the most important thing.

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You can close your eyes
to the things you do not want to see
but you cannot close your heart
to things you do not want to feel.

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People lied because truth hurts.

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HTD!

Happy Teacher's Day!
To me as well!

S2e7 23.57

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Watching greys anatomy.
And why am I being emotional and hating him?
For all I know now, begging wont do.
He likes her, just not enough.

Ouch.
This series watching really get on my skins.

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My bestfriend told me that everything is going to be ok. She lied.

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What you dont know wont hurt you?
I think the worst feeling is not knowing at all.

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I'd do it again.
I'd choose you.
Everytime.

Because it matters to me.

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The more reason for me

To feel at ease.
The sunset.

Lembaran 1 2011

I cant take it.
I thought that I can.

I cried.
I am sorry for myself
As I am not strong enough yet.

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Someone left me a note
In my iPhone
160 days ago.

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Happy Mother's Day

Because only you who can cut the cake for me with so much love like no other.

I love you, Mama.

P/s: the chocolate rice cake.

One early morning, I woke up and stared at the blanket. I was dreaming something forgotten long ago. I miss that secret escape. Full of butterflies. What I regret the most is that I leave everything to time and never take advantage of those moments. I shut my mouth, I let myself go.

Now?

Not once I feel those again.
Even when I stop trying.
Puzzle of maze, I see none solved now.
Packing up all the bags of remainings.
Sending the warmth of smile,
I will look to this feeling
Again later
If I will.

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Drumroll....

Final exam for final year!
And we finished it!

Pot calling kettle black

When you used to talk back and say things like im so bad, things are even worse on the other side of your dream world. And at least I can say I am not the only one. Haha

Pot and kettle

Final paper for final year! Done!

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Bittercold

Cold
Sore and alone
Beaten so bold
Bleeding to bone
Bring me home
Please
I step forward
I see the burn
I make a turn
I live a life
I give a heart
I let the love
To be alive

Cold is what i hate
Hurt is what i feel
Love is what i left
For life is what i have.

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Never be sad for what is over.
Just be glad that it was once yours.

Tip-toe.

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1st of May

At exactly today in 2010, I lost you.
And I am always missing you.
Thank you for being there for me
Even just for a while
And to this someone
Who used to console my heart
Today at this very time
I thank you, the ironman.
I miss you, nenek.
Al-fatihah.

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A little bird told me that I am forgotten.
How sad.

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In my memory lane,
I remember having someone
that I can bite
whenever I want to
That I can smile
Dreaming at night
That I can hold
When I feel cold
That I can mess with
When I feel stress

But I forgot that the memory remains just as how it is. As memories.

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Mineeeee

They sent me this image!
I is jealous!

The sports day

Haha!
I was trying to be so supportive for my uni. But pls ipba, can you at least choose a date that will suit all of us the students? In the midst of assignments and exam? Seriously?

But anyhow i had fun, n most importantly feel proud- not many year 4 students involved with this kind of thing you know! Hahahahhaha! Mayb i cant contribute much, i got no talent to run or such, but i hope being the coach for the cheerleading team can help. And, oh yes im so proud of you for being the champion! You go girls! And guys!

That was my last sports day as a student, before organizing it as a teacher.

Teacher?

Stop trying to change what you cant change. After all, we all have the need to be stupid sometimes.

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Oh, wallpapered already the very nice happy scene.

God, help me

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Silence is golden.
Is this one?

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Walking in a dream
To see the karma begin
Freezing cold ice blending
From beside I may not notice
From above I may not leaving
From afar I shall just tucking
Away
All the tricks, all the stains
All the things, all the pains
I am no perfect angel
Thus answers all the hatreds
For the rolling ices
Who moved the ship
Who blocked the brain
That, I cannot see.

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Reality hurts and it makes people cry.
Why should we face reality again?

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Angin..

Sampaikan salam rindu padanya.

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Tink

Tinker Bell loves Peter Pan till the end of her life, even when Peter Pan has no memory of her after that.

As always haha.

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Ouch. That hurts.

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Exhausted.

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Floral dinner

What i need
When i feel in need
is friends.
Indeed.

Thank you, Irrina.
Happy Birthday.

Xo,
Izzy.

A veil hangs between the opposites, a mere slip of thing that is too transparent to warn us or to comfort us.
You hate now, but look through this veil and see the possibility of love;
You are sad, but look through to the other side and see happiness.
Absolute composure shifting to a complete mess- it happens so quickly, all in the blink of an eye.

I took for granted of things before.
I closed my eyes over things I refuse to know.

It is Not my greatest strength at the first place but I will try to be real.

Simple algebra equation.

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I remember the times I cried before, and that made me laugh now. What I never know is when I remember the times of laughters, they will bring me to tears.

Of looking the pictures and old memory lanes.

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Point

At your weakest, you end up showing more strength
At your lowest you suddenly lifted higher than you've ever been
They all border one another,
The opposites and show how quickly we can be altered.
Despair can be altered by one simpke smile, offered by a stranger
Confidence can turn to fear by the arrival of one uneasy presence.
Everything is in the verge,
Always brimming the surface,
With only a slight shake or tremble to send things toppling.

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Perigi dan timba

Kisah perigi mencari timba
Timba dan perigi
Perigi dan timba
Sekian.

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A casket of old memories

I remember the park the swings
Higher and higher my hand is pushing
Swinging, laughing leaving all worries
The green grass
Music
Cobbled street indeed
I remember the confetti
The white dress
The flowers in the hands
Then coming
In the dead brain cells
Hands hurting, shouting, shivering
Slamming
Sprinklers again, slowly rising
Sunsets and sunbeam.

Casket closed.

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The zombie family

Thanks for making this a success.
I love all of you, my juniors.

Special thanks to you, Danny and Nurul.

Nurul..
Hugs!!!!!

To give

Fly away
High..
Star and the limelight.
To give all the wants
And all that ever asked
Why-
Stepping back and forth
Leaning.
Learning.
Loving.
Losing.
Leaving.

And start again

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Best worst

The worst part of it is you but that is also the best part of it.

I am going to search through the memory lane
Till I can say I am through and through
Through and true.

Truly you

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That face

She wore that hair
Like she did in summer night
So alive so high so nice just to wear all night
What all think why she might
But none knows if all is alright
Then she said it is fine
Since she bares it then hide
Just she wore that face
Like she did in a stormy day
So sad so bad so hateful must all miss to say
What she needed why she did this
When she just can keep all away
Just so it happen
She might just be gone
Again.

When she wore that face
When she knows that bad

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