Right?

At this very moment, I wonder. What will happen to me if I can change history to my own liking. Edit and re-create the life story to my own need.. Am I able to re-track the steps taken and turn back, way back to the places I wish I can be? Or should I be able to accept and arrive at another point of my life. Maybe I should go south but yet the north sounds good as well. In fact, all these do sound familiar. All in my head for years. At one point, the decisions that I made seem too significant they changed the whole pattern. Based n what? Ego? Instinct? What people would have wanted? Or is it because it is truly right? It is not decided. I am the one who will decide and proclaim whether it is right, and make it right.

I just couldn't help but wonder if this thorny bushes that nonstop eating my flesh is worth all the right decisions I have made. These choices are made with fear. And I foresee the fear. I am fear to face the fear.