Old memories going clearer.

Mr. X told me to be strong because nobody can make us stronger except for ourselves. He also told me to believe nobody but myself. He made me found my inner strength.

But then he destroyed it.

Now, tell me. I am not strong enough, right? Because he actually been preparing me to dodge the bullet but I failed.

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Goshh

Don't make me mad and tell me to calm down.
That is like stabbing me bad and wonder why am I bleeding.

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Sweet talk.

Tea time.
Full with calories.
Layered with smiles within.

Who can resist a life full with the loved ones?

Few chose to leave but many find their ways to me. One is on the way to be the brother, and I am more than happy.

Thank you, Allah.

Y U Judge?

So what if you know something about someone?
You might not know the full story.

So what if you heard what they have done?
You might not know what they have been through.

Stop judging.
=)

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Not going to stop

Congrats lil sis

May you have all the happiness in the world.

Love,
Along.

Choose?

Action speaks louder than words. What if the actions are meant to lie? Or to disregard?

I never wish for me to be like who I am today: a little more pessimist. But who can I blame but myself?

I stored those beliefs in a box I never know if I can open or not.

Try to stare out of a window and ponder, why must universe works the way it is. Does Karma works overtime just to make sure I suffered? Hah!

Maybe, right?

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Then I almost give up

If only I can divide myself into two, or three, or four, or even more. 

Piles of workload.

A bliss.

Deep thoughts

Oh sky I wonder, are you always so wide as I remember? That big? There are pieces of puzzles I placed all over the earth. Can you look after them? If you ever have some answers, will you whisper them in my ears? Don't mean that I force it.. Stop shredding that papers and put the pin on the skies.

=)

A little smile,
a little sunshine.
For what is worth,
I can say I'm loved.
Thank you Mama,
Thank you Abah.
Thank you to all beloved out there.

Today I just feel the happiness.

Marmalade

I see nothing, I thought, not in a mile. I dare not try.It is nearing though. Close enough, then I know, that I'm happy. No, it was not very much, just with a little dash of smile. I made the step, I just gave in. I know I took the time impatiently. But I did it. Total stranger, oh this feeling, but I think I made it.

When I just made something crazy..


All lies in the hand of this crazy lady. Thank you, Ms. Yaqin.

One year

Year One

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To be the tail

And 'jadi ekong' again.
While making coffee,
Or just looking at the door. Staring.
Play with the mm as what is inside it.

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Thank you Adele

For setting the fire to the rain;
Slowly blinding the cold the pain.

No Valentine's Day

Because it is canceled. Haven't you heard? Bummer.

Sandcastle

One Sunday I remember
Sally made me went to the beach
She sat and planned a sandcastle
With sand covered her whole body
She showed me one she just finished
The look so proud she made me laughed
Sandcastle she made with no-known shape
But efforts she gave deserved the clap
I took my step and walked to her
Planned to play but crushed by waves
She wailed she cried so full of tears
I smiled and said 'we'll make again
A sandcastle as big as mountain'

And we did today.

Not this time.

Iphone please dont do this to me.
You will give me heart attack.
Blinking like this is not funny you know.

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No longer there

Woke up to find that it was no longer there. Gave up.

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Bad habit

There will be times where you just don't know how to tell others what you really feel. You ended up keep everything to yourself and mourn within. Bad habit dies hard.

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Flashback

Dilemma much?

Starting a new page in your definition of relationship can be tough. Believe it or not, we all have difficulties in it. At least for most of us who value this a lot. We might hold on to things happened in past, making ourselves refuse to move on. Talking about them is always good, just to who, that will be best if you choose wisely. Essential part to e back in the game is to let go. Settle what happened in the past. I am no Dr.Love, but if I need to be one, I know I will advice to be rid of them, those thoughts that been haunting you.

No doubt, the start of a new relationship is often looked upon as heavenly and dizzying; a time when all you can think about is how blessed you are to have that someone in your life. Although it may feel like you can do no wrong during those first few months of being together, things from the past will catch up soon, so LET GO. It will also help if you tend to not take things for granted, and be happy with the person for who he/she is, not trying to dominate the life by telling them to change.

I made mistakes of falling (in love), and I have made my shares in heartbroken department. But now that I 'think' I am 'ready', I suddenly wonder;

Will I ever want to be hurt again?

I think

I love myself better now that I know I worth better person than you.

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Flashing memories

Sometimes, I do have flashing memories of Brisvegas that give the chills, but I prefer to shut them with my busyness of doing whatever. Don't make me regret this. 

No, I don't know...

I don't know how it started
I don't know when it ended
I don't know what went wrong
I don't know who at fault.

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#foreveralone

Total friendzone fullstop

Pretty woman

It must have been love
But it's over now
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow

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Cleaning up

Tidy up all your picture albums in external hd can be very much frustrating, especially there are things we intentionally ignore and never open. But, it also bring me smile and live-hate feelings. Whatmore when I saw those pics when I was soo thin. WAS. Past tense. Great.

Grrrr

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Rainbow after the rain

Heartbroken anyone?

After knowing that moving on means letting go, I have always be cautious of every little step. No, I am not afraid of making mistakes. I am more concern about not finding the one I can keep on doing mistakes to.

All must have remembered your own story, your first love. Sometimes it takes a lot of effort to forget, some might be impossible to let go. If you ever find one that still hung upon the past, leave immediately or you will ended up being the substitute for a little while then let go when not needed. In fact, thrown in some cases. We do not want that, do we?

Live your life. Move your ass. Make wise moves and be happy. Sometimes, your happiness can be so infectious, you may smile all the time when others join in chorus.

Thanks to everything, I can finally see the rainbow again after gloomy rainy days.

Thank you for your time in my life. It sure made me the happiest, but also the worst when ended. Not even so happy when I looked again.

Thank you for those who helped, and those who backstabbed. You guys are very much the kind of people who made life interesting.

Thank you very much.

Regards.

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Honeysweet

You are the flower in the desert.
And I wish you are right

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Right?

At this very moment, I wonder. What will happen to me if I can change history to my own liking. Edit and re-create the life story to my own need.. Am I able to re-track the steps taken and turn back, way back to the places I wish I can be? Or should I be able to accept and arrive at another point of my life. Maybe I should go south but yet the north sounds good as well. In fact, all these do sound familiar. All in my head for years. At one point, the decisions that I made seem too significant they changed the whole pattern. Based n what? Ego? Instinct? What people would have wanted? Or is it because it is truly right? It is not decided. I am the one who will decide and proclaim whether it is right, and make it right.

I just couldn't help but wonder if this thorny bushes that nonstop eating my flesh is worth all the right decisions I have made. These choices are made with fear. And I foresee the fear. I am fear to face the fear. 

Bursting laughters

After a whole clean year... Hehehe...
Thanx!

2012

Hello!
Happy New Year, lovelies!
My resolution this year? I want to change.
If you don't hear from me again,
That is my change for you.

Goodbye -

and sleep please...

At last

Once the sought-after lane
Became the tears-shed pain.

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Owning the burden is half the battle.

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The measurement

Picture is taken here

Start with one
Count until you are done
When? You count and try to run
Till the point you are having no more fun
Playing with number
Playing with the ruler
But can everything be measured?
Just because we want it numbered?
No.
At one point we will know
The point of one feeling,
is the feeling without measure
Since that day you will keep on seeing
the truth that you never consider.

Ever.

:(

There is no secret

Only hidden truth lie beneath the under.

Ukulele oh Ukulele, will you stay?

Deleted and wiped? Done.

Oh, remember the story about a car that looked nice outside but badly damaged inside?

You owe me so many things.
Pay up.


Good bye.

Hop along

Against the dark night
If the cut is that deep
Maybe because it is scary?
Maybe because of the pride?
The man-made excuses?
Throw something over the edges
And run for it
Hop along
Too vulnerable from the truth.
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With you

The best and the worst relationship.
Even after all this time.

The reason I gave up upon feelings.

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Night out

The view in Southbank at night still made me smile. Never fail.

A little girl found running
To the place the hush hush came in
Though the promised never come
But the heart seek no harm
Slowly, withdrawing
From the entangled form within
And the girl stop running

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I need to always check.
Just because
I forgot.

We are so busy growing up,
We often forget that our parents are growing old.

I love you, mom and dad.
From the bottom of my heart.

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Big Day for you..

You stood with me every time I snapped.
You gave me everything of yours when I demanded
You took the white flag whenever we fought, alright
You let me get my own way anyhow you may, you will try..

You are the oldest friend that I have.
One I never need to find,
You will always be there.
And for that I can never forget.
With lots of love, you made me who I am today

I may give you presents in years to come,
but it can never be enough compared
to the present that you already are
to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, angah.

Love, along.

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secret admirer

A little birdie sent me a tweet,
Wishing me happiness every single morning
How I mean to send it back and see
From where the little birdie came
Just to be woken up by hurtful ringing- oh
Reality hits.

Forgiven not forgotten

Always forgive,
But never forget
Learn from mistake,
But never regret.

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For a piece of paper

After all the hard work
For all the time spent away from home
For all the tears finishing whatever needed

I am now graduated

Thank you Allah
Thank you to all

Congratulation Izzy, you deserve this.
=)

Yes, maybe?

Yes.
Or no.
Maybe I am not
Only for that day
Been waiting
On the corner of the living
You found me- No?
Where were you?
Come just a little closer
Will you?

Love.

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Thank you Allah

For granting my wish.
Alhamdulillah....