Who will stay?

You know,
Honestly, I don't want someone who sees the good in me. I want someone who sees the bad and still wants me.

There will always be people who like you when you are nicely behaved. Not all will be by your side and hold your hand when you are at your worst.

Who will stay.

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Crust

Some small parts of life will be so scrumptious you will always remember. For remaining some, they will be bitter and best forgotten. Those includes the crust and hard-made cakes you hurt yourself doing it till your hands burned.

But the scar is still there, blatantly annoying to let the picture keep on coming.

Your Superheroin

I was ready to go to sleep when suddenly unwanted thoughts came to mind. Even though I always fight to forget those memories, I came to think about them one by one. Every single detail I remembered. Every happiness and sadness, fights and betrayals, using and being used, everything. Then 1 thing came to mind- I am actually a superhero.

I always endured everything on my own. There goes my first strength and weakness at the same time. Nevertheless, I realized people always find me when they need help with anything at all. I used to have a perception that I am so gullible and easily fooled by others. However, to think again, they are the ones who find me. I'm the one in their mind when the time gets tough. Ordinary person with superhero will to help people, no?

Regardless everything, even though I ended up being sad again, I came to conclusion that I am perfect that way. =)

Truly care.

Just for that one second of life, I wished everything was different.

Holiday

Like a boss!

Write and rewrite

Been re-writing the same story. Some folded, some untold. Some remained mystery. Talked some through, ignored by some too. 

The brush keep on finding the stroke, to see if there is still hope. 

Run baby, RUN!

Because of the priceless expressions =) 

p/s: Before you start looking at the pics, I just want to warn you: These pictures are not taken by professional photographer hence the lack of sharpness and not so good angle. Thank you.  

Trapped

In so-called wonderful painting with colourful palate.

Writing and being written. Not the same feeling.

The feeling of you writing ANYTHING on your own is never the same with the feeling of being written about. Especially when things written are merely from monthly report you sent for any activity you did. I guess, it sounds better on paper. No, too good. I can't believe I wrote that at the first place. It was like complaining at the same time showing off, no? Haha. I guess I cannot stop others from judging. Things can be interpreted differently based on how people see them, but what I wanted to do was just sharing my experiences.

Full article? Here: The Star


Yes, there are just haters who don't believe the good and honesty of others.

From Aussie, with love

I love the fact that Jan Harvey never fail to make me feel loved.

And lovely companies that made me smile over and over again.

Girlfriends

They bitch
They talk
They hate
They poke
They can be mean
They can be sweet

For that is their way of showing love.

SSP presents Comrades0004

I regret that I don't. Or did I?

every word you say I think I should write down
Don't want forget come daylight.

Some girls.

Must read. =)

Teach For The Needs (TFTN)

Free tuition for those needed!

People asked me, why should I add another burden to my own worrisome load in school when I can get money out of tutoring? I just smile and said, 'Why not?'

True, I have no exact reason. During my years as a children, I always want to help my friends in their studies, even as early as primary years. I hate them copying my homework. I hate them for forcing me to give them my book or they'll do something to me. Worse, I had 3 different schools due to my parents' work so being the new student doesn't help.

I heard my dad complained about really weak students, how hard he tried to help them JUST WRITE THEIR NAMES. I heard my mum told me about how she helped those poor in her school.

These students are the ones who will be very thankful to the teachers because someone truly cared for them.

So now that I have the time, (some) money, and the needed force, why not?

Then, comes the question, 'Why Teach For The Needs? Why not doing it on your own?'

I have always picture myself to do free tutoring for those who cannot afford to join tuition due to financial problem. But when a friend of mine mentioned that he wanted to initiate a project that will support this, I'm thinking, 'Why not?'. Yes, it was spontaneous. I don't even think twice to say 'yes'.

Am I a very good teacher to be SO confident in doing this?

I never claim that I am good, but I know by just complaining and doing nothing is not good. So, there.

I might not the best, but I will try my best to cater those who need my help, those who want my help.

There will be people who will underestimate our projects. Yes, they are being cynical to us on how our project will not be consistent and how fast it will stop as how fast it started. But who are you people to judge when we are determined to make this happen? Your words wont bring us down. Really.

No, this is not to promote whatever I did. I just do what I can. But, if you really want to help too, you can click on the link below.

TEACH FOR THE NEEDS

Web: http://www.teachfortheneeds.org/

Blog: http://teachfortheneeds.blogspot.com/

You can see what are the things we did, and how you can be part of us. =) No, you wont get paid, but you will get your own kind of satisfaction by the end of the day. Believe me.

Oh, all teachers are welcome to do this at your own school, with your own selected students. But, for non-teachers, you can still help. How? Click the link above haha. 

Any other question now? ;)

After so long...

I forgot how it hurts to be trapped again.

Mortarboard again.

Thank you mum and dad.
Thank you people.
Thank you to all that made this possible.

Thank you Allah.

Yayy us!

IPBA- QUT graduates
Class of 2011
(2008-2011)

Why Teach for the Needs?

Because I can do it.
And I want to.

There 's music in me

I can picture myself as a teacher. But Music Teacher? Really izzy??

Who would've guess...

Doesn't sound so legit, right?

Grab your dancing shoes

Dancing with the feet is one thing, but dancing with the heart is another. 

Do you remember me now?

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smile even when her heart is broken.
And the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own.

Oh God, whyyyy??

When you feel like reliving a familiar story, only this time you are no longer the person who is smiling. That sucks. Karma is a real bitch!

But, why make things worse... Why karma? Did I do anything to offend you lately? I am a really good girl now. I study hard to prepare before class, I am committed with my work, I work double my supposed hours without getting extra pay (7 to 7 is no joke!), I eat on time with better meal now, I made sure I spend my spare time with my family as much as I can, I don't plan (yet) on anybody special so no brokenheartedwhatevercrapImightgetinto  problem, I get together with the girlfriends and have fun whenever I am free, I shop ONLY when needed, I drink lots of plain water. I believe I did everything I can. Ok, I might  have ignored my exercise and money saving plan but I promise I will get back to them. Soon. Really.

So, y u no let me go?

First, why on my JaNNe???
Second, why okwhatevercrapishouldlabelthis*3#schsb#nsifob#hdccsxeu*???
Third, why my holiday?????

Hi,
My name is ______________, I am a workaholic.

-___________-"

Road trip

Haven't had this much fun for so long.
Thank you girls.

Congratulation syena & kn!!

Old memories going clearer.

Mr. X told me to be strong because nobody can make us stronger except for ourselves. He also told me to believe nobody but myself. He made me found my inner strength.

But then he destroyed it.

Now, tell me. I am not strong enough, right? Because he actually been preparing me to dodge the bullet but I failed.

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Goshh

Don't make me mad and tell me to calm down.
That is like stabbing me bad and wonder why am I bleeding.

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Sweet talk.

Tea time.
Full with calories.
Layered with smiles within.

Who can resist a life full with the loved ones?

Few chose to leave but many find their ways to me. One is on the way to be the brother, and I am more than happy.

Thank you, Allah.

Y U Judge?

So what if you know something about someone?
You might not know the full story.

So what if you heard what they have done?
You might not know what they have been through.

Stop judging.
=)

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Not going to stop

Congrats lil sis

May you have all the happiness in the world.

Love,
Along.

Choose?

Action speaks louder than words. What if the actions are meant to lie? Or to disregard?

I never wish for me to be like who I am today: a little more pessimist. But who can I blame but myself?

I stored those beliefs in a box I never know if I can open or not.

Try to stare out of a window and ponder, why must universe works the way it is. Does Karma works overtime just to make sure I suffered? Hah!

Maybe, right?

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Then I almost give up

If only I can divide myself into two, or three, or four, or even more. 

Piles of workload.

A bliss.

Deep thoughts

Oh sky I wonder, are you always so wide as I remember? That big? There are pieces of puzzles I placed all over the earth. Can you look after them? If you ever have some answers, will you whisper them in my ears? Don't mean that I force it.. Stop shredding that papers and put the pin on the skies.

=)

A little smile,
a little sunshine.
For what is worth,
I can say I'm loved.
Thank you Mama,
Thank you Abah.
Thank you to all beloved out there.

Today I just feel the happiness.

Marmalade

I see nothing, I thought, not in a mile. I dare not try.It is nearing though. Close enough, then I know, that I'm happy. No, it was not very much, just with a little dash of smile. I made the step, I just gave in. I know I took the time impatiently. But I did it. Total stranger, oh this feeling, but I think I made it.

When I just made something crazy..


All lies in the hand of this crazy lady. Thank you, Ms. Yaqin.

One year

Year One

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To be the tail

And 'jadi ekong' again.
While making coffee,
Or just looking at the door. Staring.
Play with the mm as what is inside it.

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Thank you Adele

For setting the fire to the rain;
Slowly blinding the cold the pain.

No Valentine's Day

Because it is canceled. Haven't you heard? Bummer.

Sandcastle

One Sunday I remember
Sally made me went to the beach
She sat and planned a sandcastle
With sand covered her whole body
She showed me one she just finished
The look so proud she made me laughed
Sandcastle she made with no-known shape
But efforts she gave deserved the clap
I took my step and walked to her
Planned to play but crushed by waves
She wailed she cried so full of tears
I smiled and said 'we'll make again
A sandcastle as big as mountain'

And we did today.

Not this time.

Iphone please dont do this to me.
You will give me heart attack.
Blinking like this is not funny you know.

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No longer there

Woke up to find that it was no longer there. Gave up.

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Bad habit

There will be times where you just don't know how to tell others what you really feel. You ended up keep everything to yourself and mourn within. Bad habit dies hard.

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Flashback

Dilemma much?

Starting a new page in your definition of relationship can be tough. Believe it or not, we all have difficulties in it. At least for most of us who value this a lot. We might hold on to things happened in past, making ourselves refuse to move on. Talking about them is always good, just to who, that will be best if you choose wisely. Essential part to e back in the game is to let go. Settle what happened in the past. I am no Dr.Love, but if I need to be one, I know I will advice to be rid of them, those thoughts that been haunting you.

No doubt, the start of a new relationship is often looked upon as heavenly and dizzying; a time when all you can think about is how blessed you are to have that someone in your life. Although it may feel like you can do no wrong during those first few months of being together, things from the past will catch up soon, so LET GO. It will also help if you tend to not take things for granted, and be happy with the person for who he/she is, not trying to dominate the life by telling them to change.

I made mistakes of falling (in love), and I have made my shares in heartbroken department. But now that I 'think' I am 'ready', I suddenly wonder;

Will I ever want to be hurt again?

I think

I love myself better now that I know I worth better person than you.

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Flashing memories

Sometimes, I do have flashing memories of Brisvegas that give the chills, but I prefer to shut them with my busyness of doing whatever. Don't make me regret this. 

No, I don't know...

I don't know how it started
I don't know when it ended
I don't know what went wrong
I don't know who at fault.

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#foreveralone

Total friendzone fullstop

Pretty woman

It must have been love
But it's over now
It must have been good
But I lost it somehow

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Cleaning up

Tidy up all your picture albums in external hd can be very much frustrating, especially there are things we intentionally ignore and never open. But, it also bring me smile and live-hate feelings. Whatmore when I saw those pics when I was soo thin. WAS. Past tense. Great.

Grrrr

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